My Ideal Bridal Bouquet

This is one of my idiosyncratic moments... So here I am, revealing to you all my "ideal bridal bouquet"... I envision myself having a bouquet of sunflowers for my wedding in future... I have not much of an idea why I'm so attracted to sunflowers~~ Don't you think sunflowers seem to be smiling at you everytime you look at them? Haha! No idea when I'd get married since there's no boyfriend in my life now, but I guess it does nobody any harm of imaging my bridal bouquet yea? Hehehehe!!!

There was this song I learned back in the 90's... The first line is like this... "Like a sunflower that follows every movement of the sun, I will turn to You, to follow You, my God..." Apparently, the sunflower will rotate according to the location of the sun (probably due to the auxin in their stems I think)... And that's how our lives as Christians should be... To follow every movement of the One who gives us life - God the Father, Jesus the Son and the Holy Spirit. God creates us in His own image of love, Jesus gives us back our inheritance as sons and daughters of God by coming down to earth and dying for us on the cross, and the Spirit leads us into living the life God has given us. The sunflower receives sunlight from the sun, thus it follows the movement of the sun. Then us, even more, should follow the movement of God.

Here are some samples of bridal bouquet with sunflowers as the main flowers... Aren't they gorgeous, unconventional, yet so bright and beautiful??? *smiles*

BONES

Have any of you ever seen "Bones" on TV? Sadly speaking, I've only watched the first season of Bones and I loved it so much that I'm re-watching it for the second time. Yeah, that's me, watching the dramas, animes, movies that I like for more than one time. One thing that struck me as I watched the episode was this thing called "social awkwardness" that this fictional Dr. Temperance Brennan has...

Then I stumbled upon a blog as I keyed in the phrase "social+awkwardness+define" in Google, and I find myself in awe of how many people in the world face this problem of social awkwardness. I have to admit that I am at many times "socially unacceptable" and face the problem of "social awkwardness" although I seem to be friendly, easy-going, all smiling and nice. Being socially awkward at times, I tend to react abnormally, comparing to other normal human beings. In fact, there's a word used to describe nerd... Geek. I probably am a geek at a level of humanity. LOL!

Today, I faced a situation which I became socially awkward and probably made a few new enemies. I was totally imprudent and rude and impolite and socially unacceptable. When I realized what I did was totally unacceptable to the norm of the society, it was way too late to salvage the situation, except a deepest regret and sincere apology. I was known to be a "faked person", a "hypocrite" to some people, no matter how true I was at that moment to the other person. So many times in life, I have a few friends, who care enough and remain patient despite abnormal outbursts of emotions. Thank God for that! Having said so, it didn't change the one fact - that I am still loved by God who created me to be me. Some of us might think I'm just deluding myself into believing that in a tiny part of the world, somebody still want to befriend me, but I truly believe and feel that God loves me enough to see pass this imprudent me and see the tiny little hope that I'm worth of His love for me.

I don't know what's going to happen to my life after this incident with my colleagues, but I know that God knows and He's my Comforter in the midst of loss and darkness. After all, the bible says that Jesus came not for the righteous but for the sinners (refer Matthew 8:13). This verse allows me this assurance that God still loves me though I've done such a thing so unacceptable socially.

Suddenly I thought of people who are socially unacceptable, who are shunned by many, sometimes including me, because what the person says or does cause people to feel annoyed, irritated and becomes irrational with thinking. I am one of them, but why am I doing things that people do unto me? It reminds me of Felix who serves with his wife in the young adults ministry I'm in... His humility is at this level that he receives and welcomes everybody in the ministry, even the "marginalized" because of their social awkwardness. Because of both him and his wife, I felt comforted when I was placed in a situation where I could no longer hang out or talk properly with the group of people I used to be with. Thanks a lot! Will I be able to emulate this humility which is being passed down to Christ? Will you?

"Can any of you by worrying add a single house to your span of life?"
~ Matthew 6:27 ~

Tagged by Joanne!!!!!

题目[一]写出你的择偶十个条件：
question 1 : write out 10 requirement to be your future bf/ husband.
(the hardest question of all time!)

1. A man after God's own heart
2. Love me for who I am
3. Accept the imperfect me
4. Renewed, serving Catholic
5. Mutual trust and forgiveness
6. Creative
7. Funny / Humorous
8. Romantic
9. *secret*
10. Family man

题目[二]写出你的十个女孩子朋友的名字 [排名不分先后Hor ]
question 2 : write down 10 girl friend's name (not in sequence)

1. Joanne W.
2. Karen C.
3. Mirina L.
4. Yvonne K.
5. Yvonne T.
6. Yvonne Y.
7. MelNic
8. Lidz
9. Jocelyn M.
10. Laura P.

题目[三]写出你的十个男孩子朋友的名字
question 3 : write down 10 boy friend's name

1. Felix W.
2. Jimmy C.
3. Daniel C.
4. Adrian Liew
5. Chris
6. Kevin K.
7. Joannes
8. Ernest
9. Jude Lopez
10. Denis T.

题目[四]写出十个你最近最常去的地方
question 4 : write down 10 places tat u have been visiting quite a lot recently

1. Maktab Nasional
2. My room
3. Kitchen in the house
4. Living room in the house
5. St. Simon Church
6. Sacred Heart Church
7. Servay Likas
8. Joanne's blog
9. Teddy's blog
10. Blogger.com

题目[五]写出你十个最爱吃和喝的东东
question 5 : write down 10 stuff tat u love to eat and drink the most
1. Mushroom
2. Tomato based pasta
3. McD
4. Coffee Bean's Black Forest Ice Blended
5. Starbucks' Hazelnut Hot Chocolate
6. Sweet & sour pork
7. Yogurt
8. Dim sum
9. Steam fish
10. All other types of food

最后，传给十个朋友
Lastly, tag 10 friends

My friends basically don't blog, but I could think of a few names... Donovan Funk, Jimmy Chang, Anthea, Denis (do you blog???) & Teddy! (I wanted to re-tag Joanne, but I let you off this time... Hehehehehe!!!)

Reflection: Psalm 139: 13-14

Do you know God loves us? Do you accept His love? Do you love Him? Do you want to be loved by Him? Do you accept Him? Do you allow Him in your life? Reflect upon it... Seeking God is a journey of a lifetime. Make that decision to start NOW! God Bless!

I'm Forever Yours - Planet Shakers

This is one of my most loved P&W song... I couldn't find the vidz for this song, so I only can ctrl-c the lyrics for your view... It's a lovely song, and what struck me today was "Trusting You and not myself will always lead to blessing"... His way is not my way, but His way is always the best way. Many times we failed to see the "blessing in disguise" because whatever tough times we're in could bring us to a point of blindness. Of course, when the right time comes, He will reveal the blessings, only if we harden not our hearts and we listen to His voice! :)

I'M FOREVER YOURS (PLANET SHAKERS)
I give my all to You
Send me and I will go for You
To the ends of the earth
I'll follow after You
I want the world to know
Your love endures forever

Tell me and I'll obey
This is far greater than sacrifice
Trusting You and not myself
Will always lead to blessing
Lord have Your way in me
Not my will, Yours be done

Here I stand within Your presence
Longing for Your touch
A thousand days cannot compare
To one day in Your courts

Hold me now
And never ever let me go
My Jesus, my precious Saviour
I'm forever Yours

I will worship You forever
I will worship You

Letting Go of You

I have a fine student, who has a wondrously sharp tongue, who speaks eloquently, yet unable to spell the word "protein" properly. It is not about his flaws that I want to talk about, but a question which he asked me during the time when I relieved their class for another teacher.

This was how his question roughly sounds like:
"Teacher, how do teachers let go of their students every year? Like last year's Form 5 students, even I myself feel a bit weird without them in school..."

And this was roughly my answer:
"Well, it doesn't matter whether teachers are able to let go of the students we have, but what's more important is teachers will definitely feel appreciated when the ex-students remember them."

I feel like this student made a difference in my life at that point when he became the trigger to a question of "letting go". Well, at least he made me ponder further... Would God ever able to let me go? Never. But He allows me freewill - the ability to decide and do what I want to do. Yet, He'll always be there to catch me when I fall, to hug me when I'm depressed. I know I'd have a harder time this year to let go of the fifth formers, as I've a deeper bonding with them, but I also beginning to accept the fact that all teachers, including myself, would have to let go when these students under our care are supposed to leave so that they will have a bright future out there. It will be sweet and beautiful when they themselves remember us and love us - the ones who had made a difference in their lives somehow. Like how God made such a huge difference in my life for allowing Himself to be found by me.

That's how great God is. Thank God for the grace and mercy shown. I trust that You have heard what my heart is saying. And You alone knows my desires and wants. Thank You for being patient with me, O Lord! Amen!

Till then... God bless!

Pray for Palestinians in Gaza Strip

I was watching news on NTV7 just now and the latest updates on the bombing in Gaza Strip was on. Please, my dear readers, please pray for ceasefire in Gaza Strip and peace of the world. People got too greedy with what we have until we fail to see the treasure of life given to us from God. Please, please, pray for the victims. Pray for a change of heart of the U.S. government so that they will use their veto power to stop the war instead of opposing peace in the world.

Thanks and God bless!!!

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."
~ John 14:27 (NIV) ~