Strange enough, I actually enjoyed attending Forensic Pathology class even the human anatomy class gave me headache when everybody seemed to be so confident of themselves. I could go extra miles just to find out more about the assignment I have been assigned to do. It is a similar feeling when I did assignments related to molecular biology, genetics and DNA topics. For once, I know my strength of being passionate about these areas.
I can't deny that I care a lot about a comment someone made when I expressed that my passion lies within these areas of interest - molecular biology, genetics, DNA, phylogenetics etc. - that even if I like these areas and want to do a project on these areas, that doesn't mean I'd get an opportunity to work on a final masters project on these areas. Sounds too much like a warning that I don't get what I wish for, and there are many others who are more worthy than me to receive what they want. At that moment, I felt like killing him, tearing his mouth into pieces. That surge of anger surprised me, I'd say. Yet, it was also very clear to me that some people just have to protect themselves. Like how my defensiveness caused anger in me.
I'm pretty messed up recently, with all these analytical chemistry subjects to tackle I know I'm not performing the way I should be. I just hope I can pass through these challenges, and have a better 1.5 years ahead of me. Never mind that cold and heartless comment that person expressed when I shared my dream. I hate to see people crushing my dreams, but this is life in a blind and self-absorbed world. So I shall work for the sake that what I do will glorify God. I am certain I don't need people like this in my life, making me feel small about myself. It is enough that I was brought up this way. Time to break free from this bondage which caused me not to believe that I have equal opportunities as others.
If it is meant to be, I will get the project I want.
P/S: Can someone please shut up the radio that is broken nearby? It's a literal translation of I'm tired of listening to humming and singing when I need to concentrate in studying in my room without needing to plug my ears with earphones. I don't need noise pollution.
