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Showing posts with label Cross. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Cross. Show all posts

Thursday, 20 October 2011

64 Days to Christmas


There are 64 days to Christmas and I am still struggling with everything in the world. I lose sight of my original vision and frankly speaking, sometimes I wonder if what I am doing right now is really what I am called to do. I came with a certainty that this is where God is calling me to be, but Europe is large enough to question myself, "Where exactly in Europe?" The place I want to be might not be the place I'm called to be. Only God knows. Sometimes I feel like the cross on my shoulders is heavy and there's a temptation to leave the cross and walk off into the world... But these few days the readings have been about mission in life, about perseverance. It was the feast day of St. Luke the Apostle some days ago, and I was reminded by the story that Luke stayed with Paul when everyone else fled. And it's almost a reminder for me to hang in there. More an encouragement than a reminder I'd say... I'm hopeful for the next two semesters, in Lisbon then in Lincoln. The thought of attending English Sunday masses keeps me going for now, though I'd like to gain enough knowledge in Spanish language to be able to understand a little bit of what the parish priest of Iglesia San Salvador y Santo Domingo is saying weekly during masses and before Adoremus. It's a pity because I know he's saying something really beautiful to God's people in church...

The biggest question these days is "Am I ready to receive Baby Jesus when He comes on Christmas?"

Well, are you ready?


Lord, we thank you for having died on the cross for us.Most fortunate is the person who walks by the way of Calvary, following Jesus our redeemer, for if we suffer with Christ now, we shall reign with Christ in the glory of the Father.Those who suffer tribulations, suffering, persecutions, and are despised for the love of God are helping Jesus Christ carry his cross. If they persevere, they will be partakers of his glory in heaven.Let us be glad when we are afflicted and the cross is most heavy on our shoulders, because then if we suffer with the patience of Christ we will begin to be his disciples.
- St. Paul of the Cross -

Sunday, 12 April 2009

The Power of Love



Happy and blessed Easter to all of you!!! Today's topic is the Power of Love. What kind of love will I be discussing? What did the Archbishop say during his homily on Easter Vigil? Well, the love I'll be discussing is the scandalous love of Jesus for mankind. The kind of love that brought Him death, and death is not enough, but death on the cross. That's the most shameful way to die during the Roman empire.

Look at this image I found via Google search. The caption is "If you get wet, you'll get sick." I guess the Lord knows this much better than any of us, especially the getting wet, getting sick part. He chose to come down and live as man on earth. He knew of His mission of being on earth, living and preaching and dying. He knows He will suffer this death in order to grant us mercy. Knowing He'll go through all these, He still came. Knowing He'll be executed by dying on the cross, He still stayed at where He was, asking God to take the chalice away from Him. When God did not answer Him, Jesus stayed to face the death. How courageous is our Lord!!!

By His death, we receive life. By His grace, we receive love. Bishop, in his homily, started with a question: "What is the core value of our faith? What do we believe in?" Simple words, we believe in the power of love, and that's what the whole Triduum we had celebrated last week is all about -- Jesus' love that conquers sin and death.

In life, we often stop and ponder the same question: What's my eyes searching for? Where will my journey lead me to? What am I doing on earth? And Bishop's explanation is that people (everybody, including those we read in New Testament) is constantly searching for something. The Samaritan woman? The lame man at the pool? They are looking for something, but nothing can fill up that thirst they have, because that thirst is the thirst for the love of God. In the first reading last night from Genesis, man was created in the image of God, thus man will always thirst for God's love. Nothing can satisfy that thirst until we come to search for God. A quote from St. Augustine speaks of this: "Our hearts are made for you, O God, and they shall never rest until they rest in You." Bishop said that although we're constantly seeking for God, God is also searching for us in order to give us His love. He is also making that journey to seek us to offer us the love. The act of Jesus dying on the cross for mankind shows that God goes all out to give us the love.

One thing that made me pondered after mass was about our baptism. I wasn't baptised on Easter Vigil that time, but when Bishop directed the points specially for those who will be baptised, I felt touched by the hands of God. He mentioned that when we're baptised, the transformation occurs so that we can be changed and be the children of God. He specifically mentioned about the reading from the gospel of St. Mark about the resurrection of Christ. When the women went to the tomb, they did not find Jesus. Instead, they found a young man dressed in white robe sitting on the stone. He told the women to pass the message to the disciples so that they will go to Galilee, where Jesus will be there to wait for them. This event happened on the first day of the week, and Jesus has resurrected on that day. Thus, in our modernised concept, what I would summarise of Bishop's statement is that the beginning of new life for those who believe in Christ is the day after baptism where we're raised from the death with Jesus.

The second point of the Gospel passage was about the young man in white robe. Remember a young man who was following Jesus after He was arrested by the guards? The man who ran away naked when the guards seized him? This was the same young man dressed in white robe at the entrance of the tomb. This young man came back. So, the question is this: WHO IS HE? Bishop's explanation is that this young man is the newly baptised Christians. Before baptised, we run away from Jesus (just like how the young man ran away from Jesus) but now he's back and he believes in Christ. He has a message for all his disciples to meet Jesus in Galillee. The Lord had ever said that He will gather His disciples in Galillee and the mission to spread the good news started there. And so, us, as baptised Christians, we have already encountered Jesus and be transformed. And if we have been transformed, then we must begin to preach and bring this message to others.

We will have the faith if we have experience the love of God. How do we express our faith to God? My first thought when Bishop asked was "trust in God". But when he gave the answer, I begin to realize that I do experience what he said. Bishop said "GRATITUDE" has to be experienced if we want to know if we have that faith. All the love of God, after we experience it, will generate a feeling of thankfulness. And if we, at that point of time, have yet to feel thankful, we must then pray for transformation to change our heart of stone into heart of flesh. He cited the example of St. Paul (Saul of Tarsus) and how he had written about his gratitude to God when he felt like giving up. God said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weaknesses..." (2 Corinthians 12:9) Indeed, it was because of that grace of God towards Paul that we have so many wise epistles and letters written by the intelligent apostle St. Paul.

Am I still making sense after such a long post, my dears? Last point of reflection whenever we renew our baptismal vows as a renewal of our faith is this: Are we at the tomb dressed in white robe? Are we thankful to God or not?

I am glad, I am thankful. Though I'm not perfect and never will be, I'm thankful He is with me.

Happy Easter once again. God bless.


Friday, 10 April 2009

Lost & Found





What really struck me during Archbishop John Lee's homily last night during Holy Thursday mass was Jesus instituted the Eucharist before He died because He can continue to be with us through the Eucharist.

Besides that, here are some other points I managed to jot down last night:
  • When we eat His body and drink His blood, we're in Jesus Christ. The church is the body of Christ, thus if we commit sins, we're kicked out of the body.
  • Breaking the commandments of God is equivalent to breaking the relationship in the community.
  • Yesterday's readings were taken from Exodus 12:1-8, 11-14 and 1 Corinthians 11:23-26. Bishop brought us to an understanding how these two readings are closely related. The reading of Exodus was about how the Lord instructed the Hebrews to prepare for the Passover meal prior to their flee from Egypt, while the reading by St. Paul to the Corinthians was about the institution of the Eucharist by Jesus Christ on Holy Thursday. The lamb in OT (Old Testament) was a symbol of Jesus, the Lamb that was killed in the NT (New Testament). The blood put on the doorpost & lintel in OT was the blood of Jesus Christ on the cross in NT. The people fleeing from Egypt when they were liberated was exactly how we are being set free from sins by Jesus who died on the cross.
  • There was a prayer mentioned by Bishop that is to be said during Holy Week. After Google-ing I found that prayer in a Holy Week daily lent prayer website under the general intercession part. Here's how the prayer goes:

Let us pray to Christ our Saviour, who redeemed us by his death and resurrection:
Lord, have mercy on us.

You went up to Jerusalem to suffer and so enter into your glory,
- bring your Church to the Passover feast of heaven.
You were lifted high on the cross and pierced by the soldier's lance,
- heal our wounds.
You made the cross the tree of life,
- give its fruit to those reborn in baptism.
On the cross you forgave the repentant thief,
- forgive our sins.

  • Bishop mentioned that by His death on the cross, we receive life. By the celebration of the Eucharist, He transformed the Passover into His own passover, which is the New Covenant.
  • Another point worth mentioning which struck me was the reading from Gospel of St. John. The account of the Washing of Feet by Jesus. St. John focused on the washing of feet prior to the institution of the Eucharist. What Bishop mentioned was that the washing of feet is the real meaning of the Eucharist - the service towards one another which Jesus stressed so strongly at the washing of feet. So the consequence of receiving Jesus Christ through the Eucharist is service to others. Without the service, our Eucharist is without meaning at all. Thus, the love for one another is part of the communion. If we do not serve, we miss the meaning of the Eucharist.
  • Bishop also mentioned that the Apostles had understood the meaning of the Eucharist wholly when Jesus instituted the Eucharist on the night before His death via their actions as found in the Acts of the Apostles to the early Christians. In chapters 3, 4 and 5 all accounted how the Apostles and the early Christians had lived a lifestyle of sharing and caring. Besides that, they served the people by healing the sick, giving to the poor and the needy. If the early Christians had followed the commandment of Jesus, so must we.
One thing that would relate the images together with Bishop's homily is this: the movie I watched (an old movie from 90's, starred by Kelly Chen & Takeshi Kaneshiro) is about people being lost in the world, seeking and searching for lost hope, while the other is a picture of a guy with a travelling backpack sitting on a bench with Jesus. Through Jesus, hope is found, love is gained. Through Jesus, the lost will be guided back to the right path and be found in communion with God.

One of my students told me that a non-Christian will know that we're Christians by our acts, not our words. The acts and lifestyle of a Christian will clearly proclaim the name of Jesus loud and clear, by portraying the compassion and love of Jesus to His people. So, in the midst of our fast & abstinence, let's reflect upon our lives, whether we have been seeking Jesus and following this path of compassion of Jesus towards the people around us. I know I'm still far behind track, but I also know I'm still on the right track now.

Thank You Jesus for Your love to the cross for us and our sins. Amen.

Monday, 1 December 2008

Inner Healing and Transformation Seminar (27-30 November 2008)

I was away for almost 4 days in Bundu Tuhan for the seminar... Last night I was excited to share everything on the blog but was too exhausted to do so... Today I have energy, but after second thought, decided to withhold some because I have yet finished digesting it. And yeah... I'm flying off tonight at 9.05 pm to Senai for a 13-day trip back home. I can't wait to see my parents and the new addition to my family - a male Chihuahua - which we named Kiki!! I shall post his lovely photos here when if I ever get internet access in Kluang... LOL!

Ok, back to the seminar sharing... The food was great, the inputs were heart-opening, the counseling was relieving, the prayer for healing was miraculous, the praying over was joyful. I guess that's my summary... Actually the whole experience was speechless if were to put them in words...

Like Thomas (John 20: 19-31), I had doubted... But Jesus forgives all. I had my share of time to just be with the Lord in Bundu Tuhan, and I really appreciated what He had done in order to prepare me for the future He has in mind for me. I really feel so loved by God and thank God for the chance He had given me. I believed He had yanked all the root causes away from my life, and I've been given the second chance in life by God. It was very painful when we were being led to prayers for healing by the speakers (Uncle Tony Lim, Uncle Joe Chee and Uncle Daniel Kong), but very very relieving once the sins/bondages were being released.

I've discovered so much, some root causes I didn't even remember that it happened in my life, but I just asked God to take it away and I want to forgive whoever who had done it unto me. I still couldn't figure out but I would just let God be God to deal with it.

I've always been drawn to the picture of Divine Mercy (Jesus I trust in You) but I never knew what the picture signifying... After attending the seminar, what I gathered is that Jesus came into our heart and in the darkness His light shines and all the evil spirit run away in fear for Jesus is the light of the world who comes to save. It has connection to the picture of Jesus knocking on the door... The door doesn't have a handle, so it can only be opened from inside... That door signifies the door of our heart, only we can open the door and welcome Jesus to come in to clear the impurities in our heart... If we are willing, He will come. Jesus will continue calling us from the outside until we hear and open for Him to enter. Once He enters into our heart, He will shine His light to save us from damnation. That's the mystery of God... A saving event... Our salvation...


Oh yeah, before I log off for real... I FOUND THE FREEDOM CAMP 2006 CROSS IN BUNDU TUHAN!!!!! I was so shocked when I saw that very cross which brought me to encounter Lifeline Ministry... And so happy, of course!!! Here are some photos of it...