The Pursuit of Happyness is No Busyness!!

HAPPYNESS vs. BUSYNESS!!

I know it has been a while since I posted an entry... Thanks to CY for reminder! Umm... blame it on heavy workloads all the sudden since Monday. Probably the meeting we had on Monday (in fact it was a one-day course) on PeKA Bio SPM is causing additional stress to an already weakened immune system. I'm currently having muscle aches especially on my shoulders, neck, down the spine and even parts of my abdoment and joints. It is either I'm developing early signs of arthritis or I'm totally stressed out. (I think the latter sounds more relevant though...) Hadn't been sleeping well at night, or shall I say I had been sleeping way passed 1 am since Sunday until now? Thus the "Cindy's like a dead log" syndrome is coming up fast. Sigh! Life eh?

I have sooooooo much to share but I'm currently writing up something which requires two of my brains to work in tune, but apparently after not writing scientific stuffs for almost three years by now, my brain is "crooked". Dang! Trying to understand where was the technical and scientific me while another part of my brain is trying to work out on the PEKA thingy.. This is generally known as multitasking and it doesn't help with focusing at all!! Hmm... According to the latest schedule, the SPM PeKA Head of District Assessor (Ketua Pentaksir Kawasan) will be checking our BIO PeKA in the 3rd week of July, which is 2.5 weeks from now. Well, sad to mention but it is true anyhow that this Bio teacher forgotten that it was June already when she flew off for her school holidays. So now, both teacher and my beloved students would have to work hard together to defend the integrity of school! Kids, sorry!!!

Hence, my toppest priority now is to ensure all my piling up as high as mountain sort of workload is diminished before I can commit to anything else. But my daily dosage of Jesus, the Healer, through Eucharist is still on, every Mon to Fri, 6.30 pm, St. Simon's prayer room. I guess that's practically the only thing I can commit until further notice.

*YAWN* I'm so sleepy. Better finish off with my writeup before it gets a bit too drowsy and blank for my two brains to think harmoniously. Oh craps! Just a little bit more...

I like what Joanne posted on her blog today, especially these two quotes (Joanne, pinjam ah!):

Tomorrow is the only day in the year that appeals to a lazy man.
~ Jimmy Lyons ~

Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.
~ Jules Renard ~

Probably because they are so me!! Yeah, sometimes laziness gets a bit out of hand with myself. Hmm... thus I need more of self-control (check out Galatians 5:22-23 on the fruits of the Holy Spirit)!

P/S: I want to watch the Pursuit of Happyness again. Anyone has the downloaded movie? Please contact me.

Pax et bonum.

Ok, confession time!

Well, I broke my fast from Facebook a couple of minutes ago, for about 5 long minutes, to send two messages to two separate individuals on my FB Friends List. You might say FB is not harmful enough to have caused me to start the abstinence since 19 November 2008, but I guess you're just not me. It wasn't about addiction, it was more than just that. I've been more than okay without FB in my life to be frank with you. I have no idea why but I'm just so free without FB. Well, it was hard at first, but as the first 30 days passed, it became easier and easier. More than 6 months I survived without FB. Hehe!

Well, I'm definitely looking forward for my 3-day trip to Kuching, Sarawak, to visit my old pals which I met through YCS (Young Christian Students Movement). I really hope to see this friend, Cuthbert, when I'm there, and the only way to inform him is via Facebook. Hence, the breaking of fast.

Well, I'm renewing my abstinence today, 26 May 2009, that I'll hibernate from Facebook until further notice. Till then, keep up with me via my blog and perhaps Friendster, if I'm "hardworking" enough to update it. ** No offence to those who use FB a lot. I have nothing against FB or any authorities concerning this social networking. It is for my own personal growth and walk with Jesus that I require this abstinence.**

Alright, time to get back to work. God bless you all! Have a wonderful night.

P/S: A Night at the Museum 2 is a hilarious movie. Grab some popcorns n chill with your friends! :)

Just Some Thoughts Here and There on a Warm Afternoon in KK

It's the 5th Sunday of Lent, the Sunday before Palm Sunday next week. Last week of Lenten season before entering the climax before the Resurrection of the Lord on Easter. I'm not a holy moly person, I'm just a sinner, not once, but repetitive sinner. Might have some Pharisee and scribe in me too. And lots of uncertainties and self-pity many times. Just a sinner wanting to be certain, be it in real world or spiritually. In Christ is where I find peace most of the time, but I still search for comfort in human relationships. Am I not renewed at this point because of this? Being a people person (an obvious excuse), I have tendency to be needy. I need Salvation from this God of mine who shepherds people out of valley of darkness. Though I had attended Novena and Sunset Mass yesterday, I attended mass again this morning when I saw that the celebrant was Archbishop John Lee. Just couldn't help it.

My heart was torn by coldness and bitterness since yesterday evening due to unforeseen circumstances and I needed that Spirit of the Living God to mend it.

Ok, the few points I can remember are as below:

1. Let the Lord dig your graves
2. Dying to sins, to self during Lent in order to be resurrected at Easter
   
3. Don't hold on to things.
4. It is ok to tell a dying person "It's ok to die" because that is the moment of meeting God face to face, but the person must be prepared spiritually to meet Him.
   
5. Jesus allows Lazarus time to let go of things that he holds on to and die, then after Jesus went to resurrect him so that God's name be glorified.
6. We need community (in the gospel - the Jews) to unbind and free us (Re: John 11:44).
   

FYI, I'm not good with audio, tend to forget very easily. There were many striking points, but so far I can only recall these. Those who read my blog and happened to be there at mass, feel free to add up the points. I'm learning to be who I am in Christ, and not the speculation of others or trying to do what others think I should do. I'm also learning not to judge those who are concerned over my decisions and place opinions about it then being slightly-off-the-warmth with me because of my decisions. Because I asked, "Why do they want to speculate and discuss on messenger about what choices I made and yet choose not to reach out to me because they find me unreachable?" thus I had judged. Now I have to re-learn to not be affected and become upset with their speculation because it all comes from the core that they care but they don't know how to care.

"Jesus said: I am the resurrection. Anyone who believes in me, even though that person dies, will live, and whoever lives and believes in me will never die."
~ John 11: 25-26 ~

Daily Mass or Penitential Service?

Yeah... I had been wondering which one should I attend? I've attended confession on 12 December 2008, but somehow sins accumulated in abundance since then... I've decided to attend penitential service instead in preparation for Christmas... I truly want to be cleansed by God and restart this life which God has given so that I may live in the fullest (John 10:10) so I'm going to reconcile with Daddy God.

*smiles* God is good all the time!

I read something which I'd like to share with you all from this website called Circle of Prayer on Forgiveness...

Here's a lovely little prayer about forgiveness:

PRAYER FOR HEALING

When we pray this prayer, Our Lord gently and gradually removes layers of emotional scar tissue while we sleep, allowing us to be happier people.

HEALING PRAYER AT BEDTIME

Jesus, through the power of the Holy Spirit, go back into my memory as I sleep.
Every hurt that has ever been done to me. ...heal that hurt.
Every hurt that I have ever caused to another person. ...heal that hurt.
All the relationships that have been damaged in my whole life that I am not aware of. ... heal those relationships.
But Lord, if there is anything that I need to do. ...if I need to go to a person because he is still suffering from my hand, bring.to my awareness that person.
I choose to forgive, and I ask to be forgiven. Remove whatever bitterness may be in my heart, Lord, and fiIl the empty spaces with your Love. Thank You Jesus. Amen

'If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive'. - Mother Theresa.