Just Some Thoughts Here and There on a Warm Afternoon in KK

It's the 5th Sunday of Lent, the Sunday before Palm Sunday next week. Last week of Lenten season before entering the climax before the Resurrection of the Lord on Easter. I'm not a holy moly person, I'm just a sinner, not once, but repetitive sinner. Might have some Pharisee and scribe in me too. And lots of uncertainties and self-pity many times. Just a sinner wanting to be certain, be it in real world or spiritually. In Christ is where I find peace most of the time, but I still search for comfort in human relationships. Am I not renewed at this point because of this? Being a people person (an obvious excuse), I have tendency to be needy. I need Salvation from this God of mine who shepherds people out of valley of darkness. Though I had attended Novena and Sunset Mass yesterday, I attended mass again this morning when I saw that the celebrant was Archbishop John Lee. Just couldn't help it.

My heart was torn by coldness and bitterness since yesterday evening due to unforeseen circumstances and I needed that Spirit of the Living God to mend it.

Ok, the few points I can remember are as below:

1. Let the Lord dig your graves
2. Dying to sins, to self during Lent in order to be resurrected at Easter
   
3. Don't hold on to things.
4. It is ok to tell a dying person "It's ok to die" because that is the moment of meeting God face to face, but the person must be prepared spiritually to meet Him.
   
5. Jesus allows Lazarus time to let go of things that he holds on to and die, then after Jesus went to resurrect him so that God's name be glorified.
6. We need community (in the gospel - the Jews) to unbind and free us (Re: John 11:44).
   

FYI, I'm not good with audio, tend to forget very easily. There were many striking points, but so far I can only recall these. Those who read my blog and happened to be there at mass, feel free to add up the points. I'm learning to be who I am in Christ, and not the speculation of others or trying to do what others think I should do. I'm also learning not to judge those who are concerned over my decisions and place opinions about it then being slightly-off-the-warmth with me because of my decisions. Because I asked, "Why do they want to speculate and discuss on messenger about what choices I made and yet choose not to reach out to me because they find me unreachable?" thus I had judged. Now I have to re-learn to not be affected and become upset with their speculation because it all comes from the core that they care but they don't know how to care.

"Jesus said: I am the resurrection. Anyone who believes in me, even though that person dies, will live, and whoever lives and believes in me will never die."
~ John 11: 25-26 ~