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By the grace of God, I bring to you my world of thoughts, my humbled self. These are my ramblings which go on as the time flees, with love that stays.

Saturday, 11 July 2009

Movies: Raving, A Film by Julia Stiles

This is a great short film by Julia Stiles! Enjoy!

Movies & TV - Raving, A Film by Julia Stiles Video - ELLE.com

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Save the Last Dance (2001)

As I've posted earlier on, I found my old stack of burned CDs somewhere in a paper bag covered with dust. How glad I am to have found that precious collection of movies of mine! I love watching movies, and there are some which will forever stay as my constant favourites. Well, one of them is "Save the Last Dance" starred by Julia Stiles and Sean Patrick Thomas. What I really like about this movie? Like what the movie tag I saw on the image: "The Only Person You Need to be is Yourself."



Many-a-times, we tend to be "plastic people" even in our own home and ministry. Last night as I shared with a sister after LifeNite, it was like a sudden realization how "plastic" we can become as we mature into adulthood. And without a channel to let out all these plasticity in life, we will eventually become human wax. Why so? When the sun comes out and shines upon us, our personality melts, like how wax melts under intense heat about the melting temperature of the wax. What is left is a puddle of formless wax dried up when the sun goes down in the midst of nowhere. And there goes our life!!!?! No way I'd be the human wax!!! I made a decision to choose a different path (like how Robert Frost described his life journey in "A Road Not Taken"). I chose to remain real even when it means people think of me otherwise.

Perhaps many will say I'm just a fool, but I'd rather be a fool for God than to be a plastic people. I may be misunderstood often, but I know my life will never be faked, even when people accuse me of being temperamental and strange. I know I am me, and I'm known to my Father in Heaven as who I'm called to be. Though life can be a struggle, but it is beautiful to struggle for a reason as big as meeting God at the end of the journey in life. And I want to be prepared for such a meeting with Him when it is my time to meet God.

So, dear friends, be who you are, because that's all you need to be. As what Jesus said immediately to His apostles when they were terrified seeing him walking across the lake one night, "Take heart, it is I; do not be afraid." (cf. Matthew 14:27), we should not be afraid to be ourselves. It will not be easy, but all things are possible with God (cf. Matthew 19:26).

Till then... God bless!

Tuesday, 7 July 2009

It's Self-Explanatory



Ever experience this kind of condition?





I guess I'm in it.

Trapped in Warfare

Okay....... This is one of the days where I feel trapped everywhere, and everywhere seems to be like distorted and disoriented, especially in school. Besides, it is as though everything I'm doing is becoming more and more meaningless. It has been happening since I came back from school break... When things started to get from bad to worse...



The Devil is indeed working very hard in this battle. And today I feel totally defeated by anger the first thing in the morning. And it continued until this moment. People, please pray for this only private Catholic mission school in whole Sabah which I'm working in now. The warfare is thickening as the day goes by. Many things are happening, not only to me but to all teachers, principal and the school's management. Everyone is affected but many do not understand. What is the effect of having a non-practising Catholic as the head of the school? Will he be transformed? Will he lead the school further and further away from God? Will this school be infested with worms and locusts? Will this school becomes a gathering of demons and evil spirits? Or will this school be filled with sunshines and rainbows soon? What can we do besides praying?

This warfare is worsen as day goes by... The negativity is building up... I need prayers, we all need prayers and intercessions from everybody who is reading this entry today. Just say a prayer for my school, my students, my colleagues and myself... The management of the school needs to start listening and understanding the plight of the teachers and the students instead of listening to craps everywhere. Who would understand the need of the students if not the teachers teaching them in school? Who would understand the need of the teachers if not the fellow teachers? If we're not being protected, are we not being swallowed by the Great Whites? I don't want to see the school eventually suffers the possibility of closing down due to man-made conditions. The school was started as a mission to evangelise to all and bring people closer to God... Are we doing it right?

Most Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us.

Mother Mary, pray for us.

St. Michael, pray for us.

All the holy angels and saints, pray for us.



Please be a prayer warrior today and start praying for my school (and maybe yours too). God bless all and thank you in advance for the prayers!

Friday, 3 July 2009

My New Baby - Maxtor


I'm so happy... Besides it's a rainy Friday (with possible rainbows production), it is also a day to celebrate the addition to my computer gadgets... A Maxtor Onetouch 4 500 GB external hard disk. I've named it!! It's a HIM!!! LOL! His name is Max (same as his brand, but of course, he's my new baby Maxtor). After meeting him for the first time in 1Borneo, P.C. Image computer stall, I kept thinking of having him. Of course, my good, ol' pal, Inspiron 4150, must first be the judge. So today, after work, I brought along Inspiron 4150 to meet with Max and see if they can work happily together. Yeah, yeah... I'm bias... I'll only bring Max home IF Inspiron says yes to him. Oh well, since Max is my new baby, that means Inspiron said YES. Smiles... Now I'm the proud mother of Max.

What I'm doing while blogging about my new baby are checking the product review of Maxtor Onetouch 4 (got a quite positive product review conclusion) and also transferring archives from Inspiron to Max. It is time for Inspiron to slim down a bit after being choked by info since ages and ages ago. Smiles... Now I'm relieved, in fact, I think my ol' pal, Inspiron, will stick with me for a longer period of time. Yay!!! :D

Stalker Online

I just got a message on my cbox noting that my own student confessed that she is stalking me on my blogspot and Twitter.. Haha! What irony! The moment I've decided to post entries on blog, I know that it is basically public. Not to mention "my involvement" with Twitter and Facebook and Friendster... Not forgetting the comments I posted on various blogs too.. LOL! Well... I found an interesting cartoon online when I typed the word "stalkers" on Google Image. Smiles... The original idea of having this blog is for me to murmur about things, especially God and my journey to be more like Him. I welcome everybody to read me on my blog. In fact, I'm happy that my student is keeping a blog. She loves writing and I do pray she'll be a great journalist one day =)


Wednesday, 1 July 2009

Individualism? Making a difference?



As I was checking inside my tiny pea brain, I came across a few words - individualism, selfishness, making a difference... What I'm not sure I'm under which category. Today wasn't a sunshine & rainbow kind of day. It was a real stormy uncertain day, with lightnings and thunders (on my part). So then I start to wonder... I prefer watching movie alone spontenously, eating good food just because I'm upset with things or stressed out or just out of boredom, never really have friends who would call me out for a drink, and the list goes on... Next I wonder more deeply... Am I just being different from others? Or I'm disliked because I'm me? Or just because I'm different, I make people super uncomfortable?

But I also know the TRUTH: I'm still loved by God no matter how I am, what I am, who others think I am. Thank You for loving me, Daddy God.

Movie-wise, I always welcome company. It is just that I kinda dislike all the hassles of calling and confirming and calling and double-confirming and calling and triple, quadruple confirming... Endless calls. No decision made eventually. Sigh! Worse still... Endless calls etc. eventually causing the people who had wanted to go to decide not to go. That's why I prefer spontaneous watching movie. Glad that I found a kaki like that, just that recently he seems a bit occupied with something. Is this attitude an act of selfishness, individualism, or just being different-minded? I'm asking about myself. Maybe I'm just having the negativity due to all sorts of storms that happened throughout the day.

Better go bath now. Have to pick up tickets in Cathay for Transformers. I guess I better pick up a book to read, since I'll have an hour to wait for the movie to start... Oh Mirina, Jocelyn, Nicholas... I pray you guys will come earlier to friend me!!!!!!