As I was checking inside my tiny pea brain, I came across a few words - individualism, selfishness, making a difference... What I'm not sure I'm under which category. Today wasn't a sunshine & rainbow kind of day. It was a real stormy uncertain day, with lightnings and thunders (on my part). So then I start to wonder... I prefer watching movie alone spontenously, eating good food just because I'm upset with things or stressed out or just out of boredom, never really have friends who would call me out for a drink, and the list goes on... Next I wonder more deeply... Am I just being different from others? Or I'm disliked because I'm me? Or just because I'm different, I make people super uncomfortable?
But I also know the TRUTH: I'm still loved by God no matter how I am, what I am, who others think I am. Thank You for loving me, Daddy God.
Movie-wise, I always welcome company. It is just that I kinda dislike all the hassles of calling and confirming and calling and double-confirming and calling and triple, quadruple confirming... Endless calls. No decision made eventually. Sigh! Worse still... Endless calls etc. eventually causing the people who had wanted to go to decide not to go. That's why I prefer spontaneous watching movie. Glad that I found a kaki like that, just that recently he seems a bit occupied with something. Is this attitude an act of selfishness, individualism, or just being different-minded? I'm asking about myself. Maybe I'm just having the negativity due to all sorts of storms that happened throughout the day.
Better go bath now. Have to pick up tickets in Cathay for Transformers. I guess I better pick up a book to read, since I'll have an hour to wait for the movie to start... Oh Mirina, Jocelyn, Nicholas... I pray you guys will come earlier to friend me!!!!!!
But I also know the TRUTH: I'm still loved by God no matter how I am, what I am, who others think I am. Thank You for loving me, Daddy God.
Movie-wise, I always welcome company. It is just that I kinda dislike all the hassles of calling and confirming and calling and double-confirming and calling and triple, quadruple confirming... Endless calls. No decision made eventually. Sigh! Worse still... Endless calls etc. eventually causing the people who had wanted to go to decide not to go. That's why I prefer spontaneous watching movie. Glad that I found a kaki like that, just that recently he seems a bit occupied with something. Is this attitude an act of selfishness, individualism, or just being different-minded? I'm asking about myself. Maybe I'm just having the negativity due to all sorts of storms that happened throughout the day.
Better go bath now. Have to pick up tickets in Cathay for Transformers. I guess I better pick up a book to read, since I'll have an hour to wait for the movie to start... Oh Mirina, Jocelyn, Nicholas... I pray you guys will come earlier to friend me!!!!!!
2 comments:
i think he is probably just... pre-occupied :)
guess so, cy... thnk he's alright dy. sigh~~ whr is the sunshin & rainbow?~
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