About The Author

By the grace of God, I bring to you my world of thoughts, my humbled self. These are my ramblings which go on as the time flees, with love that stays.

Tuesday, 24 August 2010

ROOT CAUSE

I wrote this story for a beloved friend of mine, a friend who has walked with me at the point of my dad's death a year ago. He has proved that a friend in need is a friend indeed. I hope he is well there, whatever that keeps him busy at the moment...

ROOT CAUSE

One day, as Snail crawled along the trail he takes daily to the Old Tree, he saw a tiny worm by the side, resting. Wormie, the tiny worm, looked exhausted, so Snail asked: "What have you been up to all night that you look as though you had worked so hard in the mine?"

Wormie smiled quietly and answered, "Oh, nothing special, just doing what I can do best."

Snail continued his journey towards the Old Tree, where his friends and him gather daily. When he arrived his destination, he saw his friend, Torita, the tortoise, weeping woefully. Not knowing what to do, Snail sat next to Torita until she stopped weeping. In between the sobs, Snail gathered that something seems to be wrong with Old Tree, and nothing could be done. Snail was perplexed but there was nothing he could do at that moment, but to wait.

Robbie the rabbit came hopping, and in tears, exclaimed, "OH NO! OLD TREE IS DYING!! WHAT SHALL WE DO?? OH NO!"

Now, Snail finally got the whole picture. Their beloved Old Tree, the gentle giant in their community, is dying. He is the stronghold of this whole community of animals. Snail was worried about his friends, but he had to get to the Old Tree as soon as he could. Many others were weeping together to mourn for the still-standing-tall Old Tree, and nobody was doing anything. Snail was in a confusion, but he went away to the side, and remained silent, occupied with his thoughts.

"Old Tree looks fine to me. There is no browning of leaves, no branches falling off. How could he be dying? What is happening?"

Snail went to the back of Old Tree where it was quieter to listen. In quietness, he heard a gentle shh... shh... shh... sound. He searched for the sound but he could not find the source. Torita and Robbie joined Snail, and when they started talking, the shh-shh sound disappeared. So Snail brushed it off his mind, as he thought he was thinking too much.

"So what shall we do now?" asked the still-sobbing Torita.

"We need to find a new place for our daily gathering. Old Tree would have to be abandoned," Robbie said decisively. But Snail would not agree to the idea of abandoning their Old Tree.

Morning came. Evening came. Time to return home to rest. All the animals dispersed and went back to their respective homes. Snail was the last one to leave. Taking one last look at Old Tree, he muttered quietly, "Tell me what happened, my friend."

Wormie was crawling towards Old Tree when Snail left. Although Snail was curious, but he was too tired to ask.

The next morning, Snail found Wormie sleeping under the rose tree by the side of the trail. As exhausted as the previous day. Snail couldn't help but to ask, "Wormie, what have you been up to the whole night?"

Wormie, with a gentle smile on his tired, said, "Nothing much. Just doing what I can do best, as usual."

Snail continued his journey to Old Tree, where lesser animals gathered. Some had left for the expedition to find another place of gathering led by Robbie. Torita was serving coffee to those who gathered around when Snail arrived. As what he usually did, he went to the back where he heard the sound yesterday. Sitting quietly, he heard the sound again, somewhere under his feeler. And he could feel vibration. Calling out to Torita, he asked, "Who told you that Old Tree is dying?"

Torita answered, "Wormie."

Rushing towards Wormie, Snail asked in urgency, "How did you know Old Tree is dying?"

"There is a group of nasty termites refusing to leave his roots for they need food for the Queen. I tried to persuade them by bringing them food every night, but they feast and make merry with the food I brought. Still they refuse to leave every morning. Oh... I don't know what else I can do! I am so exhausted!"

Wormie burst into tears after telling Snail.

"Wormie, you have to tell others about this, maybe somebody will have a way to chase them away!" exclaimed Snail.

"But... I'm afraid they will not believe in me," answered Wormie.

"Don't worry, I am with you. Trust me." Snail comforted Wormie.

Together, they crawled back to the Old Tree, and spoke to the animals who were gathered there about the root cause of Old Tree's foretold death. Polly, the Porcupine has a distant cousin, a giant pangolin, Giga, who worked as a bug controller. Polly went off immediately to invite her cousin over to assist them.

After a series of negotiations, the termites still insisted that Old Tree belonged to them. So Giga had no choice but to exterminate them with his special tool.

All the animals cheered and celebrated when Old Tree was fully restored to health, and thanked Giga for his kind assistance.



Sometimes, our lives are like Old Tree, we fall sick, get hurt, and unable to function as who we are called to be. God gave us people around us, to minister to our hurts. God wants to heal us so He sent us His Spirit as our Guide. And as we find the root cause of our pain, we will be healed if we allow God to go deep enough to touch the part which hurts us the most. It is painful, but in His time, our mourning will turn into dancing, our sorrow into joy.

Many times, we keep silent, thinking that we will be able to solve the problem eventually, just that it will take us a longer time (Wormie). Sometimes, we wail and cry and hope that something will happen (Torita). Sometimes we run away, moving forward from one place to another, thinking time will help us to heal (Robbie). Yet, as we move forward, or so we think we are moving forward, we are taking three more steps backward. Into our comfortable nutshell of darkness. Healing comes when we sit quietly, and we bring the hidden part of our hurting self to God, reach out to the people around us for help (Snail).

Nobody is perfect, and though we're called to be perfect for God is perfect, our perfection comes when we finally see God face to face. Being a child of God, totally loved and cherished by Him, to the point He willingly sacrificed His Son for us, we have to look beyond and celebrate the hurts we go through. For in all these, He will be made known, He will be glorified. Yes, we are afraid, we are weak, but Jesus promised that He will be with us until the end of time. He promised that His grace is sufficient for us. So, be not afraid.

All glory and honour and praise be to Christ, our Lord and Saviour. Amen.

Tuesday, 3 August 2010

Are You Suffering Too?

Here's what Prophet Jeremiah said in the book of Jeremiah (Jer 30:1-2, 12-15, 18-22) about suffering and God's response...

The word was addressed to Jeremiah by the Lord: The Lord, the God of Israel says this: Write all the words I have spoken to you in a book.

Yes, the Lord says this:
Your wound is incurable,
your injury past healing.
There is no one to care for your sore,
no medicine to make you well again.
All your lovers have forgotten you,
they look for you no more.
Yes, I have struck you as an enemy strikes,
with harsh punishment
(so great is your guilt, so many your sins).
Why bother to complain about your wound?
Your pain is incurable.
So great is your guilt, so many your sins,
that I have done all this to you.

The Lord says this:
Now I will restore the tents of Jacob,
and take pity on his dwellings:
the city shall be rebuilt on its ruins,
the citadel restored on its site.
From them will come thanksgiving
and shouts of joy.
I will make them increase and not diminish them,
make them honoured, and not disdained.
Their sons shall be as once they were,
their community fixed firm in my presence,
and I will punish all their oppressors.
Their prince will be one of their own,
their ruler come from their own people.
I will let him come freely into my presence and he can come close to me;
who else, indeed, would risk his life
by coming close to me? - it is the Lord who speaks.
And you shall be my people and I will be your God.

Wednesday, 28 July 2010

When the Rain Comes, Will Sunshine Trails Behind Too?

A child holds an umbrella under the heavy rain looking towards the long road he has traveled to find his father in the farm. His father was no where seen, but he knows his father is around. All he has to do is to continue walking, and maybe he will find his father somewhere down the road working to shoo the cattle into their shed. The heavy rain makes the road muddy and difficult to tread, and yes, there seems to be lightning and thunder too. There is fear in the child's eyes, there is a heart pumping way too fast. Tears stream down his tiny cheek onto his already soaked shirt. And then comes his father, running in the rain for his little child. He picks the child up and gives him a warm embrace. And the child feels safe and comforted once again.


Sunday, 11 July 2010

2010 FIFA World Cup Finals

This is the first time I'm blogging using Opera Mini browser on my E71. Seems pretty interesting. For once in history, I'm actually interested in watching the FIFA finals, but many of my friends are opting out because it's a school/work day and yes, their teams had lost earlier on. Haha. As for me, I started off late... Took me the match between Germany and Argentina to finally find meaning of '22 men running around the field chasing a tiny ball of black and white'. It was worthwhile to understand the whole emotion-filled situations one sees during the whole 90 odd minutes of one's time.

Hopefully a friend of mine will join me in watching the match in McD later. It kinda scares me to go there alone. Haha. I probably will pretend I'm buying late night supper if there are a large crowd later..

I gotta sleep now.. I hope you also will enjoy the finals of 2010 FIFA World Cup in South Africa! It's definitely a once in a lifetime experience!

Regain Connectivity

I haven't written a single post which is counted significant since ages ago. Apologies to my blog readers. There are many good things happening in my life, mainly of work and ministry. And yeah, no progress on human relationship though. Being single is something worth celebrating definitely. Many are called to vocation as married couples, as for myself, it is yet to be revealed. And I'm glad I'm taking time to be single. Haha.

I got myself a new baby middle last month - a smart phone, Nokia E71. And yes, I love it to bits! Especially its wifi and 3G function which enables me to go online whenever I want to, provided there's wireless access point! I have yet to explore the means of blogging online. Not forgetting its QWERTY keypad. Although it's not a touch screen phone, I'm totally at ease with it. I'm not exactly a touch-screen phone person, so I'm alright with it. However, due to the fact that I spent a sum of my money on this new baby, I have no choice but to postpone my plan of getting another laptop to aid my ailing a-gong laptop which has been my faithful companion for the past 8 years.

Something happened end of last month which cost me the old modem, and my LAN on the laptop. So I bought a new modem today. Haha. I have to "ikat perut" this month, because of the sudden death of the modem. And I have yet to solve some of my laptop's issues... Including the password-encrypted network which my network card doesn't seem to be able to connect to. Hopefully next week there will be some divine intervention.

I shall update more soon. I want to wake up at 2 plus for FIFA Finals later. Haha. To think that I actually watch football? I never thought I would, but I AM! Maybe I should watch "The Blindside" by Sandra Bullock during dinner, and then sleep early about 8pm. Hopefully my weird housemate is not parking his car behind mine, if not I shall knock his door until he gets pissed off with me. Haha. It's as though he isn't already pissed with me. I'm constantly testing his patience, as if he doesn't test mine! Sigh! If only I have a higher salary which entitles me to get my own tiny place to stay!!!

Friday, 4 June 2010

Matt Maher: Adoration


This weekend is the Feast of the Body and Blood of Christ. It is also the start of the 40-hour adoration in Sacred Heart Cathedral, Kota Kinabalu. All faithful are encouraged to spend time in the Blessed Sacrament with our Lord Jesus who is truly and really present in the Eucharist. He, indeed, is the Lord of all.

All glory and honour and praise to the King of kings, Priest of priests, and the Saviour of all.

Wednesday, 2 June 2010

Josh Wilson: Before the Morning


Do you wonder why you have to
Feel the things that hurt you?
If there's a God who loves you, where is He now?

Maybe there are things you can't see
And all those things are happening
To bring a better ending
Someday somehow you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:
Would you dare, would you dare, to believe?
That you still have a reason to sing
'Cause the pain that you've been feeling
It can't compare to the joy that's coming
So hold on, you gotta wait for the light
Press on, and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you've been feeling
It's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
You know where you're going
You just don't know how you'll get there
So say a prayer

And hold on, 'cause there's good for those who love God
But life is not a snapshot
It might take a little time but you'll see the bigger picture

Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory

It's just the hurt before the healing
Oh the pain that you've been feeling
It's just the dark before the morning