After 1 month 10 days

I'm back from the long silence... I'm officially on ministry break. As much as I know our ministry requires leaders to be there, I know I can't give what I don't have. Thus, after struggling for so long, I've decided to take a ministry break after extensive sharing with the coordinator. It is approved! LOL! Now is the time to mend the brokenness, repair the blockage, renew myself in the Lord. Praise God for His grace!

There is this relationship which I held on dearly which I pray that it will be mended in time to come, to regain the glory, not for ourselves, but for the Lord whom our hearts are anchored to. Time will come, but now, only prayers can work miracles onto the healing which seemed so unlikely unto the relationship. People categorized it as friendship, to me, it is a relationship. Any form of connections I have with people, it is already considered as a relationship to me. Like a kite which I held on too tightly, the thread broke free. But I believe God is holding on the kites of our lives with His great loving hands. And I believe God has all these prepared.

"For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope. Then when you call upon me and come and pray to me, I will hear you. When you search for me, you will find me; if you seek me with all your heart, I will let you find me, says the Lord, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back to the places from which I sent you into exile."

~Jeremiah 29:11-14~

What amazed me is how God allowed me to first read this verse in the bible after P&W session last night and also an passage written by Henri J.M. Nouwen from the book "The Dance of Life" edited by Michael Ford. The title of the passage is "Overcoming Dark Forces". I'll share this article with you all shortly.

I remember someone told me or maybe I read it somewhere... That the furthest journey on earth is from the head to the heart. As I journey deep into my own heart, I feel as though it is like walking on desert sand, where temptations of water source creep into the head, disappointing and discouraging the continual journey. I can only pray that this journey will come to an end at the time God has given me. His plan is so amazing and I can only wait for His revelation to come to me. And I pray that He will take me under His wings and teach me to soar in the sky without limit. Also that He will heal the relationships which are broken in my life. Amen!