Some Pensive Reflections About Myself...

As the night ages on, the emotions tend to be stronger. That's why, when it comes to sharing inner thoughts, heart talks, feelings, night time is the best. At least it is for me. I'm a WOMAN, so I CAN sit and talk all day. This has a lot to do with my major love language, which is SPENDING TIME..

(Source: http://1catholicsalmon.com/2012/03/02/sharing/)

I've followed Pray More Novenas for exactly a year now. I started with the novena to St. Anne, who is known to intercede for those who are looking for spouse. Norah, my friend's mother, introduced this website to a few of us who used to hang out at her place in Cordoba, Spain. The annual cycle has completed and this is the second round of novena to St. Anne for me. Many times, I wonder if the Mr. Right would ever appear, but I know that giving up is a cowardly act too. Even if he doesn't come, I'm fine being single. Yes, perhaps more often than not, having meals alone can be daunting, especially when I feel like having dinner at some posh-looking restaurants. I do have tendency to buy takeaways rather than having meals outside because it is odd to go alone. On the other hand, I do enjoy dining alone in the restaurants once in a while. It's something I picked up over the years, to be less self-conscious of some nosy waiters and staring eyes of fellow diners. It's not a crime to have meals alone.

These days, as I continue discovering myself, I do find that I am a picky girl indeed. Besides nobody took the challenge in approaching me, I did some selections subconsciously too. Haha. Which girl doesn't, right? This is a personal reflection which I wrote on my private blog: I am fully aware that the man God has for me would not need me to prove my worth. He would find me as I am, and he will know I'm the princess of God whom He has prepared for him and I, too, would find him adequately matching me in all things. This may sound like fairy tale to all who hear, but to me, it matters most. A God-centered relationship is a relationship which will last a lifetime. I trust that God will prepare him well, and myself too, to complement each other in all things.

A Tale as Old as Time, featuring Penelope Cruz

(Source: http://www.marieclaire.co.uk)

This will be the first time that I'm revealing the list of criteria which I had prayed before some years back. Nobody will fit 100%, but God knows who will have the capacity to achieve them...

I wouldn't mind if he's not a Catholic, but I do hope he can accept me being a Catholic whose spirituality is more towards charismatics. Physiques is a plus, but I'm not anywhere close to slim or hot. Furthermore, external looks do fade away as time passes by. And oh... I'm trying to live by the teachings of the Church, which means no pre-marital sex, no abortion, no divorce, etc. So, if it is you God is calling to take the challenge to complement me in life, take note of this, whoever you may be. Besides that, there's this issue which requires some physical and mental strength...

(Source: http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Wall-Around-My-Heart/1228180)

Well, yeah. This is me. The hopelessly romantic me who tends to write emo-stuffs at night :)

Prayers for Sabah, Malaysia

Many may not know where Sabah is, until the recent chaos caused by a claim of a long-extinct sultanate of Sulu that Sabah, MALAYSIA, is their homeland and they suddenly "desire to claim the land" back. Hence, a few hundreds Suluk "warriors" sailed from their origin, which is the PHILIPPINES, about a month ago, and tried to take over a village in Lahad Datu. Warriors or not, personally, they didn't think of the interests of those Suluk people who left southern Philippines during the crazy murderous times for a better life in Malaysia, be it as asylum seekers or illegal immigrants. Had this very high almighty sultan without a land but full of empty promises ever spare a thought for the fate of his potential "royal subjects" of Suluk people living in Sabah when he launched this murderous act? Probably he thought sacrificing the opportunities of more than 800,000 Suluks in Sabah to live a better life is worth of his future "kingdom". Or maybe he didn't consider the consequences of his murderous acts. Imagine them being chased back to their original land of southern Philippines due to this act of their "king"? The predator will be preyed upon their flee home I guess.

Not forgetting the natives who live in Sabah for more than 20000 years. Will they ever consider this "conquerer" a king or an intruder of their peaceful land? His "royal highness" probably forgot that besides his "royal subjects", the land is inhabited by the real royal subjects of the DYMM King of Malaysia. He forgot that Sabah gained independence through the formation of Malaysia in 1963 and has since been in the world map as part of Malaysia, not a part of some fabricated "Nation of Sulu". He forgot that a kingdom obtained by bloodshed will end in bloodshed too. Maybe soon he will remember. Maybe.

I'm just a Malaysian who lived in peaceful land of Sabah for 9 years before leaving to further my studies. I saw development, maybe some complaints (as usual) here and there, and definitely a great deal of diversity and unity. The love and peace shared in the state encouraged me that Malaysia is worth fighting for. A diverse nation yet live rather harmoniously together. We, Malaysians, are special and different ethnic groups live as one for more than 50 years now. I am saddened and angered by acts of thoughtlessness towards my home of 9 years, a place I want to call home in future too.

Maybe this self-declared royal highness of a long-gone kingdom wants a better life himself, and for his family members in future. Yet, he truly has forgotten the men whom he brainwashed to fight for his betterment have family members who love them too. Spare a thought for them too!

As the alerts are raised and people are tensed about the possibility of Kota Kinabalu, the capital city of Sabah, to be attacked by these intruders, prayers are lifted up by every person who believes in God. Be it Christians, Muslims or any other religions, all with one voice is crying out to God to save His people. I personally will be starting the novena of Divine Mercy tonight for this intention. And may the Lord strengthen the faith of His people in Sabah, and grant peace upon this land below the wind once again. Amen.