It is finally less than two weeks before I leave Malaysia for two years. I'm still blur at work and very unhappy with the things I observe there. I wish I could do something but there is practically nothing I can do... Yeah, like what the vice principal said, "It's beyond your control". In fact, I am hurt by what he said. The more I tried to do things for the school's well being, the more oppressed I felt as an individual battling against a battalion of soldiers. After being there for almost four years, I find that I did nothing that change the perspectives of my co-workers on the importance to live out the Christian faith in school as an educator. Tonight, I felt embarrassed and disappointed at my lack of achievement to change the lack of empathy in the school. I shall literally shake the dust off my sandals when I leave the staff room. I had tried, though I failed, but at least I know I had done my part. Time to fine-tune my pendulum swings...
I am clear that there have been students whom I had ministered to throughout these years, and seeing them grow, it became a known purpose that what's important is to focus on the calling God has for us all. Just now I had a chat over dinner with Jonathan Tse, another awesome friend, youth pastor, musician and local artiste. Seeing his fervent effort to reach out to the young people, I am encouraged by that, and hope that I can continue answering my call to reach out to the young people of my surroundings as I travel along. Like what my neighbour, Dominic, said when I went over to their place the other night, "NEVER LOSE YOUR FAITH". It's a strong reminder that I should be the difference in the society where Christianity is no longer popular. It's never a shameful thing to be a follower of Christ at young age. I pray I may have the strength to persevere and the power to change the outlook of what Christianity is. I know God has been the pillar of my strength and the divine Provider to my circumstances... Never lose faith... Never lose faith... Never lose faith...
It's indeed hard to say goodbyes. People who have always been around me I will have to bid farewell. I got emotionally when I sent off Karen and Irene in the airport last night for their trip to Europe. It took me by surprise when Irene leisurely mentioned "Don't cry ah", and I cried. Haha. That's the funny part... But I know after this, I won't know when I will return to KK to hang out with her. Gee... Thinking about me brings about another bout of sadness. Time to zoom out from this topic.
It's getting very late now. I better turn in after typing some stuffs on Smart Notebook software for tomorrow's lesson.
Have a good day/night!
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