OMGoodness! It's day 23. This also means I have another 3 weeks before I fly to Spain. I had been occupied for the past 12 days, hence the long silence. I'm unsure what occupied my mind, but it's something deeper than I knew. So, I just let it brew for a while, and then when it exploded on Thursday, it was alright and thank God for His faithfulness. I don't know what I'd do without Him, the GUY UP THERE.
This evening I'll be serving the worship for mass for the last time (hopefully not the final time though) with Felix and Praise Team. For six long years I've journeyed with Felix, Yvonne (his wife) and some others - from the time when I joined Freedom Camp in 2006 till now. They have been my friends, my siblings, my spiritual companions, my family. Sometimes we don't talk, sometimes we just let things go on and on without catching up. But they are family to me, sometimes more than my own family is. I'm pretty much emotional and stressed up now, but I know all will be put to the right place, because God is present in our midst, now and always.
We attended Lifeline's M.A.D. Camp last weekend (8th-10th July 2011) in Bundu Tuhan. Thank God for sending Martin Jalleh to minister to all of us there in the mountains. That place is known as "Valley of God" (as translated from the Kadazan word Bundu Tuhan. God is awesome as He always is. I sort of reconciled with my best friend whom I had journeyed with for a year plus as co-cell group leaders. He's like my soul mate who seemed to know me best. Yet, the soul mate who seemed to know me best doesn't know me as well as God can be. My God is THE ONLY God who searches for His sheep and knows them well. I am His sheep and He is my shepherd. Like how David put it in Psalm 23, I shall not want... It's deeper than what we normally can comprehend. It means, having God as my Shepherd, no worldly desires shall bother me, nothing in this world is greater than having God in my life... No soul mates, best friends, etc. can be compared to this God who cares so much that He gave us His son in order that we may have eternal life... (cf. John 3:16).
I was uncomfortable with the fact that there was a hawk who was eyeing on us as I spent time with my best friend. I know some may be insecure with this reconciliation. But why so? I have no time to comprehend the insecurity I sensed, because every minute spent with my best friend counts... Maybe I was insecure too, especially after my best friend told me he not really had missed me throughout the two years of silence between us. Well, I am trying to care not on how he feels, but to work out on my own. Yet I know, we share too many similarities to ignore each other for too long. LOL. That... I thank the Lord, my God.
Day 23 started with long-needed laundry day - there are so many pieces of clothes which require personal attention (a.k.a. hand wash). I have a lunch appointment at Irene's place. She's going to cook wild boar curry. Yummy..... Haha! Mass in the evening, and hopefully can catch a movie together with some friends...
Tomorrow is another traveling day. This time I shall be staying with Karen Chin, one of my kidz from Whispers of Wind cell group in Lifeline two years back... Apparently, WOW doesn't exist anymore.
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