Again and Again... A Decision to Make

"Another day has come to an end. What fun is there if there's no You in my life? I guess no fun at all though I probably will be having "fun" yet don't feel it at all. Numbness shall surround my body and I'll go looking around for the reasons to live. Yet, with You, all things become possible, all things become holy. You alone becomes the rock that I stand firmly on. You alone becomes the alcove of refuge when I am lost and sad. Yes, only You will come for me, again and again... THANKS, LORD JESUS."

I'm still procrastinating to do something drastic. Yupe, due to uncertainties, fears, and endless "what-ifs". As I came back from daily mass, had wholemeal bread with tuna while waiting for my ABC soup to heat up in the wok, I checked my MSN and my blog to find two particular individuals who had posted a message which I think is from God to me. A friend on my contact list posted a shoutout of "Do not fear" and Emily Sutherland blogged an entry entitling "Live Fearlessly".

What was posted that really hits me is this part:

Looking around, it may seem that no one else has insecurities quite like you do. But believe me, they do. Very likely, they believe you are the one who is fearless. So rise to the occasion. Live fearlessly. Be the bold, hopeful voice the world longs to hear. It starts with looking people in the eye, making decisions that give you room to grow, choosing not to use the filter you once used that stopped you in your tracks. Choose a new filter… one that does not allow insecurity to be a deciding factor. Just do what you know you need to do. Live moment by moment, don’t worry about where the next ounce of courage will come from. It will be there when you need it.

What I highlighted really empowered me to do what I need to do. I think it is time. And I pray it will be according to God who wills all things to happen because He loves me so. And I pray this decision will give me room to grow. When time is ripe, I will disclose what decision I made so far.

Till then, you-who-read-my-blog, please keep me in prayers for strength, courage and faith to follow the Guide, who is the Holy Spirit, who was there with Jesus and God in the beginning.