Fear of Intimacy

Just now before everyone left the staff room, some teachers and I began a chat over walking dogs to lose weight. The conversation was veered to the point that some dogs have psychological issue about intimacy. Apparently the teacher who has two dogs mentioned that one of the dogs would get jealous over the other and starts biting the other when that dog gets more attention from its owner. However, the dog would walk off if the owner decides to give a fair share of love to it.

As I reflected on the issue of the psycho dog after they left, I started to wonder if humans, too, have the fear of intimacy... And yes, I think I do have somewhat that fear that accompanies codependency in terms of human relationships. Not to mention I'm like a dog, but I could relate to this "psycho" issue. I sometimes would start wondering if I'm less likable compare to the other people when others decidedly be talking more to another person instead of me. Then what happened was I would get frustrated. But when the person gives me attention, I would make things worse by being nasty or critical, making a mess out of the relationship. Maybe some of you who finds a possible chance that you too may have fear of intimacy can comment on it?

Maybe I do have psycho issue, like the dog of my friend. Or maybe, I just need help to correct my distorted, disillusioned outlook of relationships. Like how Lasik can correct short-sightedness.

This blog has a few readers who are my students. I sometimes wonder at what point should I disclose how I feel about things.