It's been a while that I have ignored myself and everything that's happening around me. The effect of stress maybe? Or the effect of spiritual dryness? Maybe both, working alongside for the explosion of dark night of my soul.
Christmas is around the corner, and it is time to prepare once again to be refreshed by the coming of our Saviour, the Lord and the Servant King. I finally got the Music Hub on my Galaxy SIII working, and loaded the Hillsong United Radio on my favourite radio station. So now Christian music is on roll on my phone! Yay! My friends and I will be starting the 54-day Rosary Novena once again, after the rest of about 6 weeks. Well, it was a huge struggle to finish the novena, especially during the period when I was traveling. In fact, I wasn't sure about starting another round, but I know it will be good for my soul, in this season where I'm placed in a desert of desolation. Though my petitions required a LONG time to be answered, I know that God's blessings are upon those who prayed to Him and asked the intercession of Mother Mary.
Spiritual darkness comes when I fall deeply in sins, in struggles with bondages and being challenged to remain a Christian within me. Yet I know that the Lord is with me always. It doesn't matter how life turns out, but He remains faithful to me. Even when I was/am unfaithful, He remains there. I know I'm never alone, though I struggle with bouts of loneliness at times. Eight weeks into my semester in UK, nine weeks in this country, I'm wondering what I am doing here. Yet I know the only thing I can hold on right now is the fact that He called me and I answered. And that's why I am here, in UK, doing what I am doing. Despite the challenges and struggles, I am here because of the blessing bestowed upon me to receive such a handsome scholarship!
Today is the day that the Lord has made, and I will rejoice in Him! Thus, today is the day for repentance. Today is the day to start afresh in the midst of mistakes, struggles and challenges. For today, my God is going to win the battle for me, as I stand behind His shield.
This is indeed a period of tremendous blessings.
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