All of My Days

All of my days I will sing of Your greatness,
All of my days I will speak of Your grace,
All of my days I will tell of Your wondrous love,
Your love in my life... Your Love...

I have been in an emotional roller coaster since yesterday and the heavy heart is once again set within me. For the whole of yesterday everything seemed to be so blinded and so suffocating. I thank God for a friend or two who acted as His angels to walk me through the intense loneliness I felt last night. God's wondrous love ministered to me by the most unsuspecting one. He uses the most unlikely person in His time as His instrument of love. I pray this person receives as much comfort as he has given.

God is always the glorious One and when morning came, the sun rose and my heart warmed up to the sun. I rewarded myself by purchasing online in Apple Store Portugal a blue iPod Shuffle 2GB. And yes, personalized by engraving my full name on it. It's kinda weird, as initial thought was to engrave Psalm 37:4 on it. Never got around engraving such important message anywhere :/ Then running errand to the bank. Gee.. I have to run to the bank again :( The account number had an extra number.. I hope there's no transaction at the moment!!

Afternoon spent leisurely downloading praise & worship songs for gym. Planetshakers and Hillsongs of course. To prepare for the arrival of my latest addition to my gadget family :p I'm excited for his arrival the day after tomorrow bearing imprint of my name on him. Yep, my iPod shuffle is a guy. Hahaha!!! It's like tattooing my new fling. Ok, I had been loyal to my gadgets.. ermm.. somehow *chuckles*

I had been thinking a lot about how I have reacted towards some people, and what brings joy to me. Can I bring real and true joy to him/her/them through my words and actions? Or am I using him/her/them to selfishly feed my void? Even initially I had pure intention to reach out to a lost brother or sister, sometimes I lose sight of my intention, mission and ministry. I lost sight of God.

Tonight I was reminded by a dear sister, Annel, of the words from Isaiah, chapter 55, verses 8-9...
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways my ways, says the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."

Indeed a tight slap on my face. I have used a wrong method to minister and an even more wrong intention. Out of curiosity our friendship started. I forgot sharing life is a story of a lifetime, not a mere one, two-week short-term flings. I thank God He showed me once again the way that leads me to Him. Though a narrow gate, but a bright and shiny one, because He stands there in His righteousness.

Pax vobiscum.