I guess the best phrase to describe how I am right now is "in a limbo". I'm still dreamy, sleeping and eating a lot. In other words, "pigging". I know that it takes time to get over the vacation mode and all but with the upcoming classes and project preparation, I have no idea where all these are leading me to. Sheer exhaustion, maybe? I know I am blessed, in the nation where international students complain that fees are exorbitant and not enough chemicals in the lab to go around for their projects and lacking of support blah blah..., I'm fully sponsored by Erasmus Mundus for two whole years (a year had passed since) to study and get a short research project done by end of July 2013. How blessed can one get? I can only have God to thank and rely on for this abundant grace.
The potential for a month in Malaysia during the December-January winter break is definitely tempting... Yum yum... But chances of me staying in Europe/UK after this are slim enough for me to consider touring some of the European countries which I haven't stepped my foot on... Travel or home?? Travel? Home?? Both are equally tempting!
Some of my coursemates commented without thinking much that I worry too much. I am a born planner. Used to be a worrier. Yet right now, despite anxious in trying to plan my way around, I worry of nothing much really. Yes, I felt challenged and upset when people carelessly trying to "assure" me not to worry too much. I learned one thing, it is good to have plans, though sometimes plans DO change greatly. Been there, done that. Yet, I still enjoy the changes which take place in my life though these changes, too, wrecked my plans. This is growth and experience that money cannot buy. So, why not plan first? Why not plan ahead? Being flexible with a plan is better than choosing to be so flexible that there is no plan ahead. So yes, I AM PLANNING what should happen after I'm done with my EM Masters in Forensic Science. If I want to get a good stipend for a Ph.D position somewhere, I need to start planning ahead. And with a lot of prayers and trusting that God is the Author of my life, I'm sure I'll be somewhere He has in mind for me. So, yes, PLAN. And please, people who think I worry too much, get out of my life, for goodness sake!! LOL. Not that they are in my life anyway, except those times when I become a useful tool to them.
Alright, time to get ready. I'm blessed by God with good friends here in Lincoln... One would be accompanying me to visit Riseholme College in the countryside for a couple of hours and few will be gathering for Asian dinner later. How great Thou art, my Lord and my God!!!
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