Things DO Change

I notice that changes are taking place whether I like it or not. Few things that certainly have changed since I started this year-long journey since September 2008 would be the people I hang out with, the simple enjoyment of being single (no strings attache) and the joy of having time off from everything just to be alone with a book (somehow I have a pile of new, unread books waiting for me to explore) or just to blog about things in life. Not forgetting the not-so-comfy topics of my dad's passing and the distance I feel with a certain group of people (which I termed as "it's complicated" when Doraemon asked me if I would be hanging out with them on the day before my birthday). I know that things changed, perhaps, I changed. These changes are unavoidable, and I know I'm growing up fast, like it or not. Whether or not this certain group of people realize my change or not, it matters not to me anymore. I truly had enough of gossip mongers and cliques.

I have a strange dislike on the formation of cliques, be it in school, work place or ministry. Somehow, I find that cliques repel people, new people especially, to stay on in the place. It makes people uncomfortable, and most probably don't feel belonged to the group. Yes, I am anti-cliques, and I don't bother to hide it. I know that cliques don't build up a generation, instead, it brings downfall to one. And everyone always has a choice, whether you want to be in a clique (where you probably feel good, comfy and protected), or you choose to befriend everybody (where it can bring you difficulties, and people may not treat you so protectively). You always have a choice!

So, things DO change. I used to be a "Pharisee", now, I choose not to, though it is always a constant challenge to remind myself not to be self-righteous nor be justifying towards situations.